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The Struggle

Been a while since I last wrote and defeat was on my mind the last time.  Nothing has changed.  But I do know what I'm doing or should I say not doing that is getting in the way of God.  I'm believing a lot of lies and not believing enough truth.  The battlefield is all in my mind.  Which seed will I choose to deposit in my soul?  Lie or truth?  Reminds me of that scene in The Matrix when Morpheus is offering either the blue pill or the red pill to Neo.  It's all up to Neo.  He gets to decide.  One unlocks the Kingdom, the other keeps you in the dark.  Which will you choose? Ok, so that is alot of visual and no practicality.  Here's an example: from my last post you get the idea that I'm talking "myself" out of speaking for God and praying for people.  I was at a place where I wasn't seeing results, my desire was fading and I was confused.  So I began to not think about spreading the word as much until it wasn't at ...

The Elephant and the Mouse

Did you ever wonder how people crash after such victory?  I always did, that is until it happened to me.  I was riding high.  I just experienced the most powerful display of God's physical touch that I had ever seen (see the post entitled, Fire in the Palm of my Hand) and then it completely vaporized... Remember that old Warner Brothers cartoon of the giant elephant parading around while a very tiny mouse sneaks out near him?  Once the elephant catches a glimpse of that mouse, fear grips him and he runs in terror screaming like a teenage girl.  Funny, but not if you are the elephant.  How could something so small move something that large? I'm still asking myself that question but here is what happened. After I prayed for Sue's total recovery and God showed up, I prayed for Roxanne.  I was confident that God would show up.  Why wouldn't he?  I just saw him change Sue's life and mine.  Why would he not meet Roxy?  Roxy had a probl...